I’m bored, wired, and craving interaction.

For just a moment I,

I leave this world behind

Let the thoughts take me

The hopes and dreams provide

A world I’ve only imagined

I doubt it could be real

But life’s too hard to live without

The hope that dreams reveal

-Alexandra Angelone

Growing up I was that oddball in school so of course I was bullied. I was told horrible things for a long enough time that I started to believe them. Needless to say, confidence has never been a strong suit of mine. I’m at the point in my life where I can say that I don’t think I’m ugly any more but I also would never think so highly of myself to think I’m the most beautiful girl in the world. I would say I’m average. Some days I feel really pretty for whatever reason but when it comes to guys and especially the one’s I crush on, I can’t help but think “I don’t stand a chance,” or “Why the hell would they go or me?” or some other variation where I don’t consider myself good enough. But then again, a lot of my crushes are successful in some way where they have an array of women to choose from. And seriously, I’d doubt they’d go for me. Because honestly, if you were a 22 yr old guy and had your choice between a girl who looks like she could get into playboy and then me lol…wouldn’t your mind already be made up?